じ ぼう じ き
ji bou ji ki
Today I am rushed and late, because, as I'm sure someone will desperately try to point out in an example sentence, my girlfriend is in town! So to make it extra challenging, I'm giving you "oneself," "violence," "oneself," and "abandonment."
1. Complete and utter desperation
3. Giving up on everything
This would've been a good one to know a few weeks ago when my やる気 would just not でない, but I learned it last week, in conjunction with its opposite, which I'll give you tomorrow. The woman who taught it to me says that it's more than just your garden variety depression though, and that it's usually caused by some immense failure. It's the feeling of giving up on yourself after you've failed miserably at everything you've tried, and so maybe it's warranted?
I've given up on life, so I'm off to drown my sorrows in alcohol!